Raising Funds for Adoption

Well, we will be actively looking for an agency come October so now we're trying to raise some money to cover initial costs. I am selling my handmade items on etsy & have joined a great group called Hearts4Adoption We have a team on etsy also called Hearts For Adoption We are joining together to support each other along the way and help promote each other's stores so that we can help bring our children home.

Any and all prayers for us during this time would be much appreciated! We have had 2 "placements" fall through so we're praying third times a charm ;)

I didn't post about our second child that didn't happen. On a messageboard I belong to someone e-mailed me about her sister who was 9mths pregnant at the time. We sent her our profile and was fairly certain we were going to be chosen for her daughter, who was do at any time. We were very excited because they were only about 4 hrs away in GA. Well, that all happened on a Sat. By Tues afternoon, she contacted us and told us that she had chosen another family. It really puts doubts into your head about whether we will ever be chosen or is there something wrong with us that would make them not to choose us. It's just a roller coaster.



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I feel like my heart has just been ripped from my chest

My "friend" gave Jonah to someone else, over Christmas while I was out of town. I am so hurt & angry right now. I really can't write too much. I didn't know that I could actually hate someone as much as I do her. I'm sorry, I know I don't usually make posts like this, but I just don't know what else to say.

Not sure...

My friend talked w/Jonah's mother the other day & she said that she still wanted him & that she's just going through a hard time right now. So, I'm not sure what's going to happen. I'm still holding out hope that it will happen, but trying not to get too hopeful.

My baby is growing up. At school today, she turned to me & said mom I can walk to my class by myself. Whimper, whimper from me... ok, Jessica I'll stand at the end of the hall & watch you, ok? Ok, mom. Love you, bye. I just wanted to bawl my eyes out. Where did my baby go?

Please Pray!!

I'm really trying not to get my hopes up, but if anyone still reads this thing, please pray for us. LOL The girl that works with me took in a baby of an inmate back in July. The inmate was pregnant when she went to jail. She didn't want to go through the state courts because she didn't want her baby in foster care. So, the chaplain at the prison found my friend through someone they both knew. My friend went into this just as a "foster" mom. The birth mom has an 8 yr sentence, but her first parole hearing is next May. Well, my friend was taking the baby up to the prison every weekend to stay w/her there so they could bond. Well, the b-mom called my friend the other night & told her she didn't want him coming over the weekends anymore, she can't handle it. So, my friend thinks she might be wanting to give the baby to my friend. Well my friend already has 4 kids, 2 of which are special needs, and doesn't want anymore kids. So, she told me if the baby's mother does this, & gives guardianship to my friend that my friend will sign over guardianship to ME! Now, like I said I'm really trying not to get my hopes up, because his mother could change her mind & my friend's husband wants to keep him even though my friend doesn't. So, there's still all kinds of things that COULD happen. But, please just pray if it's the Lord's will, that we get this baby. I keep him in the mother's day out twice a week & he is such a sweet baby. Anyway, just please pray.

We lost another one

Well, we now have 2 angels in heaven. My second beta #'s were even lower than the first. So, I'm definitely miscarrying.

I think it's over

Not really too surprised. I started spotting on Sat & went in for an u/s yesterday. They couldn't find a pregnancy in my uterus, but they said it might just be too early. They did find something in my right tube, but I didn't ovulate from that side so they don't think it's ectopic. I got a beta (hcg) drawn & got the results today. They were only 37 which to me is low. I go in for my second beta tomorrow to see if the numbers are doubling. However, I have passed a couple of clot looking things (TMI I know) so I'm not too optimistic about it all. So, there's my update.

A new addition to the White family

Well, God willing, it looks like we're going to be having a new addition to our family. My due date is 4/14/08. We are over the moon right now.